In light of my last post, Ethernet Wars, I´m not sure how much time I have to write any post, but I´m going to go out on a limb and hope it lasts a bit. Keep in mind my connection troubles could come back, rendering me useless to WordPress, unable to write anything (mobile is too small for me!).
Small cold wars aside, there is another reason I will be absent in the coming weeks, and the reason is: summer camp! Realizing scouting is not for me, but I still want to help kids play outside and have a good time, I took my leave there. I was introduced to a different organization.
This organization plans camps for kids, some big (like summer camp: several weeks of camp for several different groups of kids) and some small (week-ends and evenings). The camps usually have some sort of theme and various games/adventures planned by volunteers such as myself.
I am very excited, partly because the other volunteers seem to be “my kinda people”. Scattered across different ages, ranging from the utterly normal to the fairly eccentric, interested in working with kids for a variety of reasons. It bodes well for our relationship during camp.
The situation is also unnerving because very few, if any, are aware of the extent my PTSD and anxiety issues go. I for one know that in any social situation, there is a chance of (mental) breakdown. If I have one, I will obviously not burden the kids with it and withdraw.
Nevertheless it is scary, because I haven´t been involved in such social situations for years. The problem is I can never know what I am capable of, and even if my PTSD is getting better, if I don´t give it a chance. This is what I love doing, so I am giving it a chance – here goes.
I will not have access to, or very limited, connectivity during camp (most likely, I will not have time for any type of social media). Naturally I will come back and give you an update as soon as I can (hoping that the Ethernet Wars subside within the coming month).